Starting something is not an event

Once again I find myself at the beginning of a beginning. OK, this is not the actual beginning, but then again so few things truly are. This is just a new chapter, or more appropriately, the first chapter in a new book – literally.

In truth, I’m terrified. But as I begin I am reminded of a quote by one of my favorite writers, Seth Godin:

“Starting isn’t like that. Starting something is not an event; it’s a series of events. You decide to walk to Cleveland. So you take a first step in the right direction. That’s starting. You spend the rest of the day walking toward Cleveland, one step at a time, picking your feet up and putting them down. At the end of the day, twenty miles later, you stop at a hotel. And what happens the next morning? Either you quit the project or you start again, walking to Cleveland. In fact, every step is a new beginning. Sure, you’re closer than you were yesterday or last week, but you’re still…”
Seth Godin, Poke the Box

So what’s got me so terrified? I have set out to write a book, well, three books to be exact! Why three? I guess I figured that just because I’d never written a book before (or much of anything for that matter!) how much harder can it be to write three books over just one?

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You see, my personal comfort zone is either on stage or in front of a camera. Giving a lecture or recording a podcast is my wheelhouse method of communication. Writing, yeah, not so much.

The motherfucker of it all is that I know what I want to say! I have been standing on my cyber resiliency soapbox for years. I know the message, I know the content, and I know the audience – SPOILER – it’s not the IT folks. OK, it kind-of is, but that’s a subject for another post.

Bottomline is this. I’ve been speaking on the topic of cyber resiliency for a good while now, and it is finally time to suck it up and write it all down.

As Seth Godin said, starting something isn’t an event – which is great news for me as no one will immediately see this weak-ass attempt at a first step. Writing a blog, much less a whole book, is way outside my comfort zone. The truth is that I feel restrained in this medium. It’s entirely foreign to me, and I’m incredibly intimidated by all the rules to say nothing about all the grammar – ahg!

On stage, I can riff on a topic with ease. A 45-minute speaking session goes by in an instant. Yet here I am struggling to tack out 600 words. To help overcome this anxiety and the stress of the first step I have given myself a single, feeble, post. It is both a first and a last. I have allowed myself this single public post to lay excuse and disclaimer. From the next post on, I’ll keep the sausage making behind the curtain. I promise!

But today I get to rant and rave about a medium that has held me in terror for most of my professional life…

…And just like that, if you were to believe in karma or fate, or just really great algorithms; I swear to you that an instrumental version of Eminem’s Lose Yourself just came on. Thank you Spotify!